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Running running running, thats all i can do. They're all around me,
ripping, clawing, biting, doing their best to get to me and kill me.
I don't know why me, Ive done my best to keep my head down. So well
I thought i'd kept my head down, that not even my friends notice me.
If you can call them friends. Breaking free of the rope that bound
me, I escaped. I don't know who they are. Every time i try to look
at them, they are shrouded in darkness. Not even a vague outline
betrays them. Running is all I can do to get away. I'm weak, I cant
fight. They find me when i try to hide... Why do i continue to run?
Why don't I just let them finish it? Finish me? Thinking about it
makes me stumble and fall. Curling into a ball i feel them tear into
my arm, my neck, my back. Pain, excruciating pain courses through me,
yet I don't die. They pry me out of a ball and I get a glimpse of the
leader. Its him. The one I love, but do not know. He opens his mouth
and I hear him speak. What he says scares me and excites me.
"I will always find you Jessabelle. Don't try to hide, not even in
your dreams, for I will find you."

Gasping, I wake up and try to look around in the dark. Grasping for
my phone, I open it and see its 7am. Still a few minutes before I
have to go school. Getting up, I stumble over my cat and dog and flip
the light on. Squinting against the harshness of the light I look
around and try to find some clothes that look clean. Throwing my black
jeans and a low cut blue shirt on, I grab my phone, Ipod, and necklace,
and stalk out of my room. I get a ride from my neighbor to school, but
only have 2 classes on this day. Four hours to myself and nothing to
do in this damn town. Sighing, I head over to the book store and sit
down with a book in my hand. Trying to read is not happening, my mind
is a thousand miles away.

Who is this boy that keeps plaguing my dreams? Some times he's killing
me, others he's trying to seduce me. He reminds me of a person I use
to know. But that boy just disappeared over a year ago. And the dream
boy is different somehow. His presence sends chills down my back. He is
feral, has a wild, untamed aura around him. It attracts and scares me.
His eyes are beautiful. They are like a riled up ocean storm in one
moment, and like the rolling fields the next. They are blue and green
mixed, but there is no sufficient way to describe them with justice.
He protects me and destroys me. He cares about me and hates me. I know
in my heart that I love him, but I don't know him.

After school, I hang out with my friend Aria. We go to the mall most
days, but never do anything. Lately, we've been getting more and more
bored with the town and nothing can sate our need for adventure. I
drag her down to the river on nice days, just to watch the water, and
sometimes, the birds swimming around the dock. We do the same thing
every day. Go downtown, go to the mall, go down to the river, go back
to the mall, than go home. Sometimes we find some people we know that
are downtowners. Sometimes we don't. Same thing happens.
When will it change?